i realize what i've done
i don't think i can let you go
in my mind
i don't know what to do now
it was all so clear
its all gone
washed away
i don't know what to do now
i found it but don't want to go through
but i can't let you go
in my head
i hate what i have become
what do you say to someone
who you love more than words can say
when you know how it ends?
what do you do
when you've thrown away everything that means anything to you
and you don't know why
when everything falls in on itself
and all you can hear inside your head
is the echo of tears
that aren't falling
but are burning away at the inside of your eye lids
what is left
when your eyes feel like they're going to pop
and all you know is that you have betrayed the one who you love
the one you promised you would never betray
i don't know what to do now
i can apologize to you forever
but it will never make it better
and i can't let you go
in my mind
what can i do now
do you hate what i have become
do you hate me the way i hate me
something needs to change
i need to fix it
i don't know how to cut myself out of the picture
without hurting anyone
i know that you are busy
so i don't expect an answer from you
i know that you probably don't want to talk to me
i expect you to hate me the way i hate me
everything happens the way it's suppose to
i don't understand what is suppose to come of this
i don't understand what this is for
it hurts so much inside
so different than before
i want to end it
to make it all go away
but i promised i wouldn't
so i can't
it would hurt too many people i care about
i keep dyeing in my head
something keeps happening to me
i don't know what yet
it's like a ghost image
i keep seeing tequila
it's dark
i'm holding the tequila
drinking
standing
i don't' know what's happening
there are people but i can't focus on anyone
it's like a party outside
i don't know what's happening
i shouldn't be there
i don't know how to stop it
i know when this is
i just don't know what's happening
i hate myself for losing you
you completed me
i hate myself for the things that i said
it needs to change
if i change it though
we will never speak again
i have to figure out how to fix it
its over
i broke it
there is only one way i can fix it without hurting anyone
and i don't know how to make it work
i love you
i failed you
i betrayed you